Ok, I think I am about to give up....Give up on adulthood, that is. It seems the harder I try to be responsible and make the best choices, the more opposition I find in my way. I got home from work last night to find that my electricity had been turned off. It seems that they never received my payment. I use a power company where I didn't have to put down a deposit. Which is cool, but that means that if payments are late, then the power gets turned off. So, I had to make a payment over the phone. When I asked what will happen if/when they receive my check, I was told they will go ahead and deposit the check. It will be posted as a credit to my account. Which, if I had the cash to burn, that would be great. However, I don't have the extra $175 to just double pay an electric bill in one month.
Last night was quite interesting at my place. I lit candles and relaxed on the couch with my dog. Cappie has been the best little friend in the world. I can hold her and she makes me smile. I totally understand why dogs are called man's best friend. I love snuggling with her in the mornings and playing with her when we first wake.
I cut and colored my friends hair last night too. She is getting married, so since she is getting all new dishes and kitchen stuff, she gave me her old stuff. I love getting new-used stuff like that. I am not going to use the dishes she gave me everyday, but I don't think one can have too many dishes. I never know when I will have company and might need an extra plate or an extra bowl. She also gave me a set of mixing bowl...I LOVE MATCHING MIXING BOWL!!!! They are white with a blue ring around the top of it.
I went home during lunch to check and see if my power is back...and it is not. I want to cry.....
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
This time of year
There is something about a change in weather that brings a smile to my face. I was doing laundry last night and this morning before work, and as I was folding shorts, I wondered if I would be wearing them anymore this year. Last night, I turned the air conditioner completely off and opened all the windows to my place. I slept so good last night. I think it was the combination of the cool, fall-like weather and the fresh air that filled my home.
While getting ready for work this morning, I turned to a different side of my closet...the long sleeved section. I enjoy cooler weather more than I do warm weather. Strictly on the side of fashion, I have more clothes to support cool/cold weather than I do summer wear.
I think there is something about the brisk air that takes me back to when I was about 5 years old. My family lived in Fresno, California. I remember getting ready to go to kindergarten. My dad always woke us up every morning. He worked nights, so his time to spend with us was waking us up and getting us ready for school. I remember wearing short sleeved shirts, but inthe mornings as we were walking out the door and going to school, I would freeze. By the end of the day, I was glad I wore short sleeves.
I guess this weather makes me a little nostalgic. I want to go buy a pumpkin...not that I would eat it or carve it into a jack-o-lantern. I want to simmer apple cider on the stove. I can't wait to start seeing the leaves drastically change their colors. I look forward to wearing sweaters. For me this is the perfect time of year.
While getting ready for work this morning, I turned to a different side of my closet...the long sleeved section. I enjoy cooler weather more than I do warm weather. Strictly on the side of fashion, I have more clothes to support cool/cold weather than I do summer wear.
I think there is something about the brisk air that takes me back to when I was about 5 years old. My family lived in Fresno, California. I remember getting ready to go to kindergarten. My dad always woke us up every morning. He worked nights, so his time to spend with us was waking us up and getting us ready for school. I remember wearing short sleeved shirts, but inthe mornings as we were walking out the door and going to school, I would freeze. By the end of the day, I was glad I wore short sleeves.
I guess this weather makes me a little nostalgic. I want to go buy a pumpkin...not that I would eat it or carve it into a jack-o-lantern. I want to simmer apple cider on the stove. I can't wait to start seeing the leaves drastically change their colors. I look forward to wearing sweaters. For me this is the perfect time of year.
Monday, September 8, 2008
Back in the old habit...
Ok, so yesterday I did something I swore I would never do again. I went to an audition. The church where I have been attending was having auditions for their band. I haven't really been active with music since before Easter of this year. That might not seem like a long time, but for someone who used to vocalize all the time, it seems like ages to me. I was so nervous too. I felt like I was back in college auditioning for different choirs, musicals, and operas.
I asked my sister, Alyssa, to come with me to the audition. I don't know too many people at the church, so I wanted someone with me that I knew. We got to the church at 3 in the afternoon. I was expecting the auditions to go quickly. But, it didn't...I think I finally sang at about 4:45. To add to my nerves, when I sat at the keyboard to play and sing one of my pieces, the ear monitor didn't work. I was only supposed to do a sound check, but since everything was going "ok" I played and sang the enitre song. The song I played and sang was the old hymn, "It Is Well With My Soul." Then I got up to the microphone to sing my other piece, "You Raise Me Up," and the disc was scratched, so it skipped quite a bit of the introduction. It also had some kind of popping noise going on too. Again, I was just supposed to do a sound check but since I didn't know if the disc would play completely, I went through the entire song. I guess it turned out ok. The music director at the church told me that he would be in touch with me to start getting me incorporated with the band. So, I guess that means I made it. I was so stricken with anxiety. There were a couple of times before I sang where I wanted to run to the restroom to puke...but I didn't. I did, however, manage to get a horrible headache last night. Hopefully that will be the last audition I ever have to do the rest of my life.
I have sang hundreds of times before large groups of people, and I get nervous, but not nearly as bad as I did yesterday. I hate being on display for people's criticism. No...no one criticized anyone, but I think we all know how judgemental humans can be.
When I was finished auditioning, I went out to the foyer where everyone else was at. This man I go to church with asked me how long I have been singing. I counted up the years...18 years!!!! That makes me feel old. Then I counted up how many years I have been playing the piano, and that was 11 years. When I had to verbalize those numbers, it made me realize that I am not quite as young as my mind thinks it is. After I heard this one lady play the piano, I couldn't believe that I had the nerve to play myself for one of the pieces I did. Oh well...at least piano is not my primary instrument.
I am looking forward to getting back into the music field. I think I sang more yesterday just practicing than I have in about a year. My voice is terribly out of shape. But, hopefully that will soon change. I miss reading music and singing harmonies. It will be fun to get back into the swing of things.
My mom and grandma are getting back from Arkansas today, so this evening, I will go over to the parents' house to visit with them for a while.
Well, I hope everyone is having a great day! 'Til next time....
I asked my sister, Alyssa, to come with me to the audition. I don't know too many people at the church, so I wanted someone with me that I knew. We got to the church at 3 in the afternoon. I was expecting the auditions to go quickly. But, it didn't...I think I finally sang at about 4:45. To add to my nerves, when I sat at the keyboard to play and sing one of my pieces, the ear monitor didn't work. I was only supposed to do a sound check, but since everything was going "ok" I played and sang the enitre song. The song I played and sang was the old hymn, "It Is Well With My Soul." Then I got up to the microphone to sing my other piece, "You Raise Me Up," and the disc was scratched, so it skipped quite a bit of the introduction. It also had some kind of popping noise going on too. Again, I was just supposed to do a sound check but since I didn't know if the disc would play completely, I went through the entire song. I guess it turned out ok. The music director at the church told me that he would be in touch with me to start getting me incorporated with the band. So, I guess that means I made it. I was so stricken with anxiety. There were a couple of times before I sang where I wanted to run to the restroom to puke...but I didn't. I did, however, manage to get a horrible headache last night. Hopefully that will be the last audition I ever have to do the rest of my life.
I have sang hundreds of times before large groups of people, and I get nervous, but not nearly as bad as I did yesterday. I hate being on display for people's criticism. No...no one criticized anyone, but I think we all know how judgemental humans can be.
When I was finished auditioning, I went out to the foyer where everyone else was at. This man I go to church with asked me how long I have been singing. I counted up the years...18 years!!!! That makes me feel old. Then I counted up how many years I have been playing the piano, and that was 11 years. When I had to verbalize those numbers, it made me realize that I am not quite as young as my mind thinks it is. After I heard this one lady play the piano, I couldn't believe that I had the nerve to play myself for one of the pieces I did. Oh well...at least piano is not my primary instrument.
I am looking forward to getting back into the music field. I think I sang more yesterday just practicing than I have in about a year. My voice is terribly out of shape. But, hopefully that will soon change. I miss reading music and singing harmonies. It will be fun to get back into the swing of things.
My mom and grandma are getting back from Arkansas today, so this evening, I will go over to the parents' house to visit with them for a while.
Well, I hope everyone is having a great day! 'Til next time....
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
The Tuesday after Labor Day....
I love having holidays spaced throughout the year, but I always look back at the weekend after one has passed and wonder, "Where did the Holiday go?" It was a great weekend though. On Friday night, Alyssa and I decorated for our friend, Danielle's bachelorette party. Then on Saturday, we cooked and and finished the decorating just in time as guest showed up. We had a great meal of ham, chicken pot pie, salad, pasta salad, mash potatoes, corn on the cob, rolls, and Magnolia cupcakes for dessert. We had a fun night that ended up in the pool.
Sunday and Monday, I spent a lot of time with my family. We are getting ready to go to Oklahoma tomorrow for the birth of my brother Eric's son, Jesse Ray. I am not sure of all the exact details other than we are leaving Celina at 8 tomorrow morning and won't get back until late Thursday night. While we are there, my Grandma from California will arrive, so there will be around 25-30 family members that I will be visiting with in the next few days. My brother Scott is also showing up for the birth. I guess we will be having somewhat of a reunion. Eric's wedding was the last time all my siblings and parents were together.
I am glad the heat of the summer is almost over. It has been warm (quite warm) and humid the last few days. I like having breaks in the heat and today we got one. It is overcast and windy today. My favorite weather. I just wish I had motivation to work during days like today.
When I was a kid, my mom started a tradition that I have always loved. At dinner each night, we had to name one blessing from the day, one disappointment and one anticipation. Today, I am blessed that I had a nice lunch with friends, Finances disappoint me (ha ha ha), and I am looking forward to seeing family tomorrow!
Hope everyone has a great day!
Sunday and Monday, I spent a lot of time with my family. We are getting ready to go to Oklahoma tomorrow for the birth of my brother Eric's son, Jesse Ray. I am not sure of all the exact details other than we are leaving Celina at 8 tomorrow morning and won't get back until late Thursday night. While we are there, my Grandma from California will arrive, so there will be around 25-30 family members that I will be visiting with in the next few days. My brother Scott is also showing up for the birth. I guess we will be having somewhat of a reunion. Eric's wedding was the last time all my siblings and parents were together.
I am glad the heat of the summer is almost over. It has been warm (quite warm) and humid the last few days. I like having breaks in the heat and today we got one. It is overcast and windy today. My favorite weather. I just wish I had motivation to work during days like today.
When I was a kid, my mom started a tradition that I have always loved. At dinner each night, we had to name one blessing from the day, one disappointment and one anticipation. Today, I am blessed that I had a nice lunch with friends, Finances disappoint me (ha ha ha), and I am looking forward to seeing family tomorrow!
Hope everyone has a great day!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Tummy Ache
So when my alarm went off this morning, I was made aware that my stomach was not in a good mood. It has been aching and cramping all morning. I don't know what is wrong...I think I might be dying....ha ha ha It is still rainy here, maybe my stomach was trying to tell me to take the day off.
People can be so confusing. I am sure most would say the same about me. But, the older I get the more I try to be understanding of others. Here's the problem with that: I can't understand what is not me...make sense? Actually that might have seemed a little self-centered/involved, but I think we are all that way. I think subconsciously, we all expect others to see every situation the way we do. However, when I take a look at my family, friends, social network, etc, I see a wide variety of political, religious and moral values. Somehow, I fit right in the middle. Isn't that a weird thought?!?! I once heard that we, as humans, are nothing more than the compilation on the positive influences of others. The older I get, the more I understand what that phrase means.
Age...No one ever prepared me for my late 20s. I have learned that there are different stages to life. There are the baby to kindergarten age. There's the elementary age, junior high, then high school. There's the college age, then the 20s hit. My early 20s seem like ages ago, my mid 20s seem a while back and I feel that my late 20s is cleaning up the mess that all the previous years caused. Do I dare wish for my 30s to get here, or does it just get worse?!?!?! ha ha ha
Well, I hope everyone has a fantastic day. I hope your stomach doesn't hurt like mine.... 'Til next time...Bye!
People can be so confusing. I am sure most would say the same about me. But, the older I get the more I try to be understanding of others. Here's the problem with that: I can't understand what is not me...make sense? Actually that might have seemed a little self-centered/involved, but I think we are all that way. I think subconsciously, we all expect others to see every situation the way we do. However, when I take a look at my family, friends, social network, etc, I see a wide variety of political, religious and moral values. Somehow, I fit right in the middle. Isn't that a weird thought?!?! I once heard that we, as humans, are nothing more than the compilation on the positive influences of others. The older I get, the more I understand what that phrase means.
Age...No one ever prepared me for my late 20s. I have learned that there are different stages to life. There are the baby to kindergarten age. There's the elementary age, junior high, then high school. There's the college age, then the 20s hit. My early 20s seem like ages ago, my mid 20s seem a while back and I feel that my late 20s is cleaning up the mess that all the previous years caused. Do I dare wish for my 30s to get here, or does it just get worse?!?!?! ha ha ha
Well, I hope everyone has a fantastic day. I hope your stomach doesn't hurt like mine.... 'Til next time...Bye!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
It's a rainy day here in the big city of Celina. I always have the hardest time peeling myself out of bed when I hear the rain falling on the roof. I was hoping that I would have recuperated from the weekend by this morning, but obviously, I have not.
This last weekend, my brother, sister and I sent my parents away for the weekend to celebrate their 35th anniversary. They went to a cabin in east Texas. It was fun being able to prepare the trip for them. Alyssa and I went grocery shopping on Friday night. We made sure they had food that they normally do not get since there are so many kids to buy groceries for. They left Saturday morning and came home Sunday night.
I "watched" the younger kids this weekend. I didn't stay at their house since my place is only a couple of blocks away. I wouldn't say that I had to keep a close eye on them, but the knowledge that I was responsible for 4 younger kids made my anxiety rise. Overall, it was a good weekend. I had the kids come over to my place for a while on Saturday. I had to clean my house, so I turned a movie on for them and cleaned around them. After church on Sunday, we went back to my parents house and had chili dogs. Afterwards, I rallied the troops to get in gear and clean my parents' house. I told them it would be their anniversary gift to my parents. It worked...we got it all cleaned within 3 hours. The power of teamwork!!!!
I want to get a big mug of hot cocoa, a good book and a blanket. Today would be a great day to relax while it pours outside. Try to stay awake and enjoy your day!
This last weekend, my brother, sister and I sent my parents away for the weekend to celebrate their 35th anniversary. They went to a cabin in east Texas. It was fun being able to prepare the trip for them. Alyssa and I went grocery shopping on Friday night. We made sure they had food that they normally do not get since there are so many kids to buy groceries for. They left Saturday morning and came home Sunday night.
I "watched" the younger kids this weekend. I didn't stay at their house since my place is only a couple of blocks away. I wouldn't say that I had to keep a close eye on them, but the knowledge that I was responsible for 4 younger kids made my anxiety rise. Overall, it was a good weekend. I had the kids come over to my place for a while on Saturday. I had to clean my house, so I turned a movie on for them and cleaned around them. After church on Sunday, we went back to my parents house and had chili dogs. Afterwards, I rallied the troops to get in gear and clean my parents' house. I told them it would be their anniversary gift to my parents. It worked...we got it all cleaned within 3 hours. The power of teamwork!!!!
I want to get a big mug of hot cocoa, a good book and a blanket. Today would be a great day to relax while it pours outside. Try to stay awake and enjoy your day!
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Nothing....
Ever have those days/weeks when it seems like nothing is really happening? That is where I have been the last week or so. I am grateful that I have finally slowed down, but it seems like now I have nothing to work on in my spare time. I can only clean my house so many times in one week. I can only cook enough food that I will eat before it goes bad. There are only so many movies I can watch before I go insane.
I have been doing some reading. I love the book I am reading, but I can't read too much of it at one time. I get so mentally exhausted from it. However, I am learning to view my relationship with God completely different. I am learning that I need to have an equally important relationship with God the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I think too many times we don't think that a close relationship with Jesus and the Holy Spirit are as important. I know that a relationship with Jesus is mandatory for salvation. But, too many times we get saved and then we focus more of our attention on God the Father. I know I pretty much just push the Holy Spirit over to the "conscience" category. The book I am reading is teaching/reminding me that a real "human" relationship is needed with all three.
I am celebrating my one year anniversary here at the office this week. I can't believe it has been a whole year. I look back to who I was and where I was when I first started here and I see that God has brought me so far, both professionally and personally.
My sister and dad were in a wreck yesterday morning. Some guy didn't see the...IN A BIG SUBURBAN!!!! He pulled out and t-boned them. Poor Alyssa was so scared. Thankfully, they are both ok. I gave my dad a little grief for not calling me...I found out through a lady that works across the street from me. I have come to the conclusion that my family has very bad car karma -- if there is such a thing. I am sure State Farm hates seeing the name "Pevehouse" come across its desk.
Well, I am gonna get going...almost lunch time. Oh yeah, I think I have kinda stalled on Slim Fast. I still have a case in my fridge, but food is so comforting right now. Oddly, I think I have lost some weight being off Slim Fast. Hmmm...who'da thought?!?! Hope everyone has a great day! Take time to see God the Father, God in Jesus, And God's spirit...they are all there!
I have been doing some reading. I love the book I am reading, but I can't read too much of it at one time. I get so mentally exhausted from it. However, I am learning to view my relationship with God completely different. I am learning that I need to have an equally important relationship with God the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I think too many times we don't think that a close relationship with Jesus and the Holy Spirit are as important. I know that a relationship with Jesus is mandatory for salvation. But, too many times we get saved and then we focus more of our attention on God the Father. I know I pretty much just push the Holy Spirit over to the "conscience" category. The book I am reading is teaching/reminding me that a real "human" relationship is needed with all three.
I am celebrating my one year anniversary here at the office this week. I can't believe it has been a whole year. I look back to who I was and where I was when I first started here and I see that God has brought me so far, both professionally and personally.
My sister and dad were in a wreck yesterday morning. Some guy didn't see the...IN A BIG SUBURBAN!!!! He pulled out and t-boned them. Poor Alyssa was so scared. Thankfully, they are both ok. I gave my dad a little grief for not calling me...I found out through a lady that works across the street from me. I have come to the conclusion that my family has very bad car karma -- if there is such a thing. I am sure State Farm hates seeing the name "Pevehouse" come across its desk.
Well, I am gonna get going...almost lunch time. Oh yeah, I think I have kinda stalled on Slim Fast. I still have a case in my fridge, but food is so comforting right now. Oddly, I think I have lost some weight being off Slim Fast. Hmmm...who'da thought?!?! Hope everyone has a great day! Take time to see God the Father, God in Jesus, And God's spirit...they are all there!
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